What would you?

Seems that people are always ready to die for something. Dying for something is easy, all you have to do is give up. I think the real question is....

What would you Live for?

Christmas

Well it's Christmas time again, time for peace on earth and good will towards men. I hope that the holidays finds everyone doing well.
To all my brothers and sisters serving in the Navy, Army, Air Force, Marines, and Cost Guard be safe and you are in our hearts. Thank you for your sacrifice.

'Twas the Night Before Christmas
(or A Visit from St. Nicholas)
by Clement Clarke Moore

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
in hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there.

The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
while visions of sugar plums danced in their heads.
And Mama in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,
had just settled our brains for a long winter's nap.

When out on the roof there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
tore open the shutter, and threw up the sash.

The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
gave the lustre of midday to objects below,
when, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
but a miniature sleigh and eight tiny reindeer.

With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick.
More rapid than eagles, his coursers they came,
and he whistled and shouted and called them by name:

"Now Dasher! Now Dancer!
Now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On, Cupid!
On, Donner and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch!
To the top of the wall!
Now dash away! Dash away!
Dash away all!"

As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
when they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky
so up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
with the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too.

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
the prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my head and was turning around,
down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound.

He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
and his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot.
A bundle of toys he had flung on his back,
and he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.

His eyes--how they twinkled! His dimples, how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
and the beard on his chin was as white as the snow.
The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
and the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
that shook when he laughed, like a bowl full of jelly.

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
and I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself.
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head
soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
and filled all the stockings, then turned with a jerk.
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
and giving a nod, up the chimney he rose.

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, 'ere he drove out of sight,

"Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night!"

Out comes the evil...

It starts off as it usually does, in a smoky bar. Conversations battle with each other and "Weezer" for dominance. The soft warmness brought on by rum has put me in mellow mood as I make my way to the bar. So far the evening has been good, dinner with a friend then down town for a few libations.
"There is a sad sight, a sailor with a empty glass."
I turn as a small glass of clear liquid is pressed into my empty hand. The smell of liquorice assails my nostrils, Sambuca. Nothing good can come of this.
"Dunno love, trying to keep it easy tonight. Besides you've never seen me when I drink this stuff."
She moves close, her breath hot against my ear.
"I heard it makes you evil, I wanna see..."

Korean Politics

This actually happened in the South Korean Parliament. It's scary when American politicians look mature by comparison.

Bit of the ol' randomness

They say it's a bad thing to hit someone with a closed fist, but at times it can be hilarious. -Mal Renolds- Firefly

In the two and a half years I've been in Korea, I have found out they care more about whose fault something is more than the actual problem.

It never ceases to amaze me how a person can be smart, but a group can be hands down stupid.

I have the firm belief that stupidity should be painful if not outright deadly.

Korean elections are coming up, it's refreshing to see that politicians here are just as corrupt as they are back home.

One of the those questions I never wanted to hear from another man. "So do you know where I can buy some leather chaps?" Why can't it be the gorgeous women that ask this of me? Would be more than happy to go as a consultant.

Flame throwers, while fun, can be as dangerous to the user are they are to the target. Grenades and rocket launchers fall under this heading as well. (Don't worry I discovered this in a video game, not in real life).

I miss my Wee Scottish Lass, funny that Korea seems more drab without a Scot.

On the upside, Korea seems devoid of mimes.

If a modern day Tom Sawyer has a mean mean stride, what does a modern day Huck Fin have?

Truth can be fun

"You're last name is Bacon? Wow, are you any relation to Kevin?" Here we go again, it amazes me how often I get to play this one out. "Yep, he's my uncle." I respond, my face deadpan, then return to my drink. "No way!! Kevin Bacon is not your uncle is he?" "Yep, Kevin is my father's younger brother." A small part of me wants to believe that people are not this gullible, the rest of me grins inwardly and wonders how far it will go this time. "Oh my God!! Could you introduce me?" I shrug "Sure, if you're ever in Georgia give a call and I'll take you by their house.". A flash of confusion "He has a house in Georgia?". "Yep, down by the river." A knowing glance "Ahh, must be in a upscale place. Hey guys, this guy is Kevin Bacon's nephew!"

Funny how it never occurs to folks that there is more than one Kevin Bacon in the world.

Demons

We all have our demons, part of what makes us human. The problem is when they start controlling you. It gets worse when you know what is happening and you do it anyway. Comes a time when you have to face your demons. Not something you can run from, nor is it something that someone else can do for you.

As much as I care, I can't do anything to help. You are facing an enemy I can't fight for you. This time you have to save yourself.

Ritual

The calmness settles over me, the world has been compressed to a small clear window surrounded by black. Through this window I watch a small black dot jump with every heartbeat. I feel the warmth of the sun on my skin, the smell of fresh cut grass fills the air. I feel the presence of my father standing slightly behind me to the left.
The dot has stopped jumping. Exhaling slowly, I squeeze the cool metal under my finger. Thunder rolls, across the field a small hole appears in the dot. "Oh yeah, it's on." I hear my father say, his voice muffled by the headphones over my ears.

The above is something me and my father have done for years. Every time I go home we spend quite a lot of time target shooting. When I am off walking the world, I miss it immensely. When I am home, there is nothing I would trade it for.

One of those nights....

"I've been seeing a therapist lately. I have a lot of anger problems, mainly wanting revenge on people I feel have wronged me." -My date Thursday night (no joke)

Yet another reason I hate blind dates. Needless to say, got the hell out of Dodge quickly! I don't think there will be a second date.

In the funk...

In a bit of a mood lately. Just can't be bothered to give a damn about most things. No particular reason why, just in a funk. Think it's my mind's way of telling me that there needs to be a change, or could just be that I'm tired of this place and the wanderlust needs to be obeyed. Really don't know, I'll be back to normal in a couple days. On the bright side for once it's not over a woman (just because I know you're reading Mia :P)

Give it a rest

I know that I have ranted about the media many times before, but what can I say they keep spinning me up. It's no wonder that the world thinks the American people are stupid, watch the evening news. This is what most of the world sees and thinks we are about. Take a look at some of today's headlines from Fox News and CNN.

Let's see:
Death - Check
Fear mongering - Check
Politicians bickering like children - Check
Cheap shot at the political right - Check
Cheap shot at the president - Check
Cheap shot at Christians - Check
How great the Clintons are - Check
Meaningless tripe about Brittney Spears - Check
Meaningless tripe about Paris Hilton - Check
Random non-Brittney/non-Paris star supporting a cause - Check

All that is missing is global warming being blamed for some new problem. Seems like this is all we get any more, and this is all the rest of the world sees of us. Looking at the media's picture of the US you see a grim, violent place. A place where you can't even do yard work without ending up in a wood chipper. A place where valiant liberals fight against the corrupt and evil conservative Christians. A place where the public cares more about Brittney's bad parenting and Paris's spat with a greeting card company than they do about what is happening in the rest of the world.

It would be great to see the news channels actually report some news.

Unbowed

Muscles burn with fatigue, hearts race, lungs threaten to burst. Like kittens at play the two figures roll and tumble across the floor. The smaller of the two alternates between attack and escape, the larger seeking to restrain and entrap. The smaller fights with the speed and raw instinct. The larger moves in the calm methodical manner of experience. Both are grinning.
The exchange continues, the fondue, wine, and other guests all but forgotten. Finally a mistake is made, the smaller tries to overpower the larger. Limbs are entangled, and the smaller finds herself trapped and the air slowly squeezed from her lungs. It's over.

I lay on the floor panting, her head on my chest. I can feel her heart pounding as the adrenaline is washed from her body. One of the other guests peeks around the corner shyly, seeing the trashed bedroom. "Ummm... you two ok?" I smirk "Never better.". Her head raises and she looks at him "Yeah, he kicked my ass, but I never gave in. The bastard knows he was in a fight." "Aye dove, we'll make a fighter of you yet."

The second time

This morning was the second time I had to say goodbye to you.
The second time I had to leave for work and know you would not be there when I got home.
The second time I have had to feel that emptiness where you used to be.
The second time I had to look into your winter blue eyes and pretend to be strong.

Snakes in the grass

Never had much truck with politics. I really don't have the mindset for it. Many of my current problems are stemming from people playing political games. I am paid to do a job, I do it and I do it well. My customer is happy, I make my company lots of money (of which I see very little). It irks me that to cover their own ass, people twist the meaning of my words to imply that I am to blame for things that I have no control over.

If you are unclear on something that I have written or said, ask me to clarify it. Jumping up and down and point you finger while shouting "He said this.", only serves to put me in a bad mood. It also tends to have me talk to the site supervisor who you have just bypassed, and have him go to the program vice president and lodge a formal complaint.

Heros

A buzz tingles my leg, distracting me from the lecture on laser dynamics I am giving. Mentally cursing I pull the small black annoyance out of my pocket, looking at the glowing screen I see "Where have all the heroes gone?". Ten Koreans look at me anxiously as I stare at the little phone dumbfounded.

Not sure where the heroes have gone, we seem to have killed them with lawyers and forced mediocrity. Fear of lawsuits keep many people from helping others when they can. The continued culling of personal responsibility keeps everyone in the "It's not my problem." warm fuzziness. Bit of a sad state we are falling into.

I remember my grandfather, a simple man. He was not what people would call an educated man, nor was he a rich man. He was born in a small town in Georgia, and with the exception of being drafted into WWII, lived there his whole life. You will never see his name in the history books, but he is who I have always thought of as a hero. He was a truly selfless person, he would give you his last possession if you needed it. He would sacrifice everything without thinking of repayment or any type of personal gain. He cared about people, and made time for them because is who he was. He was a good man, not by trying to be one, but just by being one.

To me that is a hero.

Remembering to breathe

Been ignoring my blog of late, not intentional, but with everything going on something had to give. For the last month or so I've been getting hit from all sides at once, and things have been escalating as of late. I'm hoping that things will calm down soon and I can get back to the task of simply being me. I'll be posting as time and mental state allow.

Catching a breath...

Been quite brutal lately, been in limbo waiting to see if I stay or leave Korea. Added to this I have had money woes, lease problems, and most importantly a friend in the hospital. It has been a very long month, but things seem finally be on the mend. Friday I fly to spend a couple weeks with the family, and I get to meet my newest niece. Looking forward to a bit of a break, will be nice to have a chance to catch my breath.

Fair

Fair.... Seems like a simple enough word, not sure that it has meaning in real life. Last night had a friend tell me about her weekend. Seems a good friend to the both of us is in a bad way, and will be going under the knife.

Fair... Is it fair that these things happen? Is it fair that there is pain in they eyes of people I care about? Is it fair that I can do nothing but pray?


I was once told that life is full of sorrows and that every moment of joy is a treasure. Is it fair that this truth no longer comforts me?

Tunnel vision

Two guards, chatting, blissfully unaware that they are being observed. I sight in, the cross hairs finding the first guard. I wait for the shot, my finger resting lightly on the composite trigger. The cross hairs give a small jump with every heartbeat, I change my breathing to steady it out. There it is, a loud report splits the night, as the first guard falls. I quickly sight in the second one before he can recover from the surprise of the first shot, A second shot rings out. As the second guard falls, I see a bright flash and every thing goes black.


YOU HAVE DIED!!!!

Continue? yes/no



Doh, glad I saved. These video games are getting too realistic.

Posers

You've seen them before, people who pretend to be something they aren't so they can fit in. The hard core rapper wanna be who would wet himself if he ever was in the ghetto. The activist that jumps from issue to issue depending on the cause of the week. These people have always rubbed me the wrong way, something about the inherent lack of confidence. I don't see what is so hard about being yourself.

Ghosting

I feel like I'm in between worlds at the moment. Caught between Korea and the United States. In just under ten days I leave Korea, possibly for good, to head back to the States. I really don't want to go back yet, but have no choice in the matter. Right now I am in two worlds, and belong to neither.

Beat down and more than a little irate...

Know I have been lax in posting recently. With all the confusion and chaos going on with my staying/leaving Korea, been burning the candle at both ends. So far I have learned that yes I may stay or go. I'm getting no support from my parent company, who refuses to release moving funds until they absolutely have to. It also seems that the people who decide about my contract could not pull their collective heads out of their asses with a tow truck. Hopefully things will be sorted soon and can get back to having a life.

33 years....

33 years, I now have a year for ever country I have visited. Guess I need to visit a couple more before next year.

Stressed

Pretty stressed out at the moment. Waiting to see if my contract in Korea is getting extended. The Koreans say they want to keep me, but are haggling over price. The first deadline was the August 1st, after negotiations the new deadline is the 15th. If no extension goes through, I fly out September 1st. This means my entire life is on hold waiting for a decision. Now I have to start setting up a move, schedule a flight home, find a new job, and a place to live all of which will have to be able to be canceled at a moment's notice.

I need some rum

Sudden storm

It starts off with a few fat drops of rain falling from swollen dark clouds. Nothing to worry about keep going. Then the bottom falls out. Sheets of rain and hail come, the wind howls. A bright flash, and the peal of thunder reminds me that we are in the middle of a river on a rubber raft holding metal oars. A broad grin splits my face as I look at my companions, more than one wants to head for shore and wait the storm out. Our guide pushes us forward, wearing a grin matching mine.

Life is short, live it while you can.

I want to be evil...

After watching the new Harry Potter movie, I want to be evil. Not due to any wish for world domination or the need to foil some meddling kids, no evil just has the best wardrobe. Seems that with the whole call of darkness comes fashion sense.

Tomorrow...

I look down at my watch and wince, time to make a discreet exit. Drifting towards the door, my farewells are met with hugs, handshakes, and the offer of more libations. As usual discreet has gone out the window.

"It's not that late you could stay a bit longer."

I look down into deep dark eyes, it's a fight not to drown in them. The rest of the bar fades into nothingness, the clean crispness of her scent cuts through the smell of smoke and alcohol. In the back of my mind something primal feels the warmth of her nearness and hungers.

"Afraid I have to, us old timers need our beauty sleep. Not all of us are as blessed as you."

I grin mischievously, still trapped by her eyes. A coy smile graces me.

"Call me tomorrow?"

"My word on it."

Her eyes close, releasing me. I feel the heat of her breath on my cheek. Our lips meet as the world drops away.

Who knows what tomorrow holds? I can't wait to find out.

Too many goodbyes...

Been saying too many goodbyes lately. It is the nature of this business that people come and go, that dose not make it easy. I've never been the most sociable of persons, so when I have to say goodbye to a friend it leaves a icy void where someone should be. This morning I said it again.

Things started off with the intervening hand of Murphy's law.

"Morning... What time is your train?"
" 6:59..."

Things kick into high gear as realization kicks in.

"Darlin, it's 6:30. Get up and get dressed, we gotta go!!!"
"None of my alarms went off, how does this happen?"
Fumbling on a pair of socks "Don't worry bout that now, we gotta move."

6:34
A small black car, revs and speeds out of an apartment complex.

6:40
The small black car weaves through city traffic at break neck speeds.

6:45
The driver of the small black car curses vehemently at a traffic light, in multiple languages.

6:50
The small black car screeches to a halt in front of the Taegu Train station. A large dark haired man grabs a suitcase and sprints for the lobby, followed closely by a petite blond woman.

6:57
The man hands the suitcase up to the woman as the train door closes.

I watch the train door close and feel the coldness of a new void. I'm sure we'll meet again, the world is a small place.

Fair winds and following seas, Dove. I'll miss you.

White knight redux...

I don't think I'll ever understand the motives of many people. To see someone in trouble or pain and not help them, bit of an alien concept to me. Even if I truly hate a person, I'll help them if they are in need.
Here recently a person I know has been in a bad place. Not only did their "friends" not lend a hand, but some tried to take advantage of the situation. I just don't get it.

Truths from the weekend.....

Been a strange and eventful weekend, learned some truths (some good some bad) and had way too much fun.
Started Friday night in the Shisha (hooka) bar. Love this place, mellow and relaxing. Nothing like kicking back, drinking wine, and smoking the hooka. During the chitchat I learned some truths about some folks, and feel the fool for trusting them. On the plus side learned one friend is completely trustworthy.


Then off to the mud festival, a total blast. Imagine, if you will, THOUSANDS of westerners and Koreans getting together for drinking and playing in the mud. Some of the truths from revealed here were:

I am cursed to have a farmers tan. 2 days of sun, and my legs and trunk are still way too white. On the plus side I apparently don't burn either.

If you are a 98 pound man there are things you don't do. One of them is to lay claim to a patch of public beach during a festival to set up umbrellas that people can pay to sit under. If you do this and then try to kick a lot (600+) of drunken partying folks off of it, you do not start with the large group of drunken G.I.s.

During such a festival as this, if the stores near the beach sell fireworks they will be used on the beach. Drunk westerners will shoot roman candles at any thing/body. Trying to stop these things from happening is unwise at best.

No beach should be without rum or tequila. Soju and Makali (Korean booze) just doesn't do the job.

At no time should you bring any small dogs to an occasion as this, especially if you have dyed their ears and tail different colors (don't ask, it is a fashion statement here).

All in all a good time was had

EDIT: posted some of the pictures from the fest on my photo-blog

There are no uppercuts in Salsa....

"Forward on the left foot, back on the right. Feel the rhythm."

This mantra repeats in my head, as I try to ape the smooth movements of my teacher. The tempo of the music is contagious.
"OK, man you're doing good. Now remember that your dance partner will be moving with you, so keep the timing. If you loose it, someone is gonna get stepped on."
Part of me is glad that I decided to get some basics before heading to the salsa club, the other side wants to jump right into the mix and learn by doing.

"Forward on the left foot, back on the right. Feel the rhythm."

Concentrating on my feet, my arms are left to their own accord.
"Dude, um... I don't think you're gonna be blocking punches."
Looking down I see my arms have gone into a defensive position, the foot work is similar enough to a martial arts form that muscle memory has taken over. ~sigh~ Now all of me is glad that I got some basics first.


"Forward on the left foot, back on the right. Feel the rhythm. No uppercuts."

The things I do to impress women.

Randomness

Bit of a random day today, my mind is pinging all over the place. The rainy day outside has me bored and restless, not a good mood to be in at work. Some randomness of the day so far:

If I can not tell you some information because it will violate a contract, asking the guy beside me will net you the same answer.

The creator of the cell phone will be both loved and despised throughout history.

Subjecting your coworkers to the smell of Corn nuts in a small office should be punishable by a severe beating. Loudly crunching them and smacking you lips while you eat said snack food, should be grounds for a violent painful death.

It costs nothing to be polite. When a engineer flies across the world to help you, and after 2 minutes of conversation you make a comment about her chest is not a good way to keep goodwill up and running. This also has the added effect of making the large technician beside her irate (yours truly), and can involve very pointed words when she is out of earshot.

Why are the stupid ones always put in to management positions?

Lunch really needs to hurry up and get here.

Rose colored glasses...

"How can you support the war? People are dying. I hate war!"
Bright blue eyes burn with the righteousness of a zealot.
"All good people hate war, but at times it is necessary. Trust me when I say that people who have stood and fought hate war more than you will ever understand."
"War is never necessary, too many people are dying."
"What about World War 2 was that necessary? More people died on D-Day, than have died in Iraq. That's just one day."
The righteousness falters for a second, then come bright even brighter.
"Even that one shouldn't have happened, war is never necessary. If I had my way people would just be nice to each other."

Sadly enough I was not talking to a child, this is from a young woman working on her masters in "Socio Economic Design and Construction". Yet another reason that fanatics are dangerous. Truth be known, I wish everyone could just be nice to each other. Alas I don't think human nature allows for that.

Surpise

He's younger than me, faster than me, his eyes burning with fire. His country,his studio, his students and countrymen cheering him on. We lock eyes and I see it, that moment of surprise as fire meets ice. He has lost.
His attack comes with only the slightest tell, but that is enough. The kick that should have taken my head off finds empty air, and I am upon him. Chain punches rain down on him as tries to understand how I got so close. In a panic he tries to back away only to find his foot won't rise as mine has it pinned. He jerks his foot back as I release it and give him a slight nudge, the rest of the studio has gone quiet as their teacher flies off his feet.
With a grin I strip the padded gloves off and offer him a hand up.

My nature...

"You don't have to take every one's problems on your shoulders."
"I don't know, his shoulders are pretty big."
A deft smirk flashes
"I work out, and it's my nature."

How many can claim that they truly know their true nature?

What happens when two sides of your nature come into conflict?

"gnothi seauton" or "Know thyself" was inscribed in the pronaos of the Temple of Apollo at Delphi. At times I don't know if I truly do, and others I think I know myself too well. I suppose this lumps me in with the rest of humanity, scary thought.

Passing in the night

The cool glass presses against my back as I wait. The cab dropped me off into the hot languid night too early, now just to wait. The throngs of people rush by me, I scan the crowd. A face stands out, our eyes meet. The distance between us closes, surprise and curiosity meet my steady gaze. Light banter is exchanged, queries are answered, and farewells are said. Our ways part and again I wait.

Why fight?

Why fight? A better question would be "Why live?".

Not talking about fisticuffs, talking about life in general.

It's not about winning or losing, it's about having tried. It's about standing up for what you want and those you care about. It's about not choosing the easy path. It's about passion, pain, joy, and in the end it's about life.

If you're not willing to fight, are you alive?

Can't sleep...

I lay in bed, the night beckoning me with the promise of repose. My mind races with the thoughts of the day, the harsh red LED of my clock displays 10:30. I close my eyes and try to quell the flow of thoughts to no avail. Words and images flash across the back of my eyelids. I toss and turn trying to find a comfortable position, with a sigh I get up and have a drink of water.
Returning to the my bed, scarlet numbers glare at me 02:00. I try again to slumber, almost immediately my mind is flooded. Guess there is no choice, time to try the place. Under the accusing 04:00 I create the flame in my mind, and let it all burn away. With all the thoughts gone and the flame extinguished I start to fade. The world becomes soft and begins to s.l..i...p a...w.a....y....


CRACK!!!


The world snaps into sharp focus, every sense dials in at the sudden sound. Muscles tense and prepare to move. The glue holding one of my mounted photos to the wall has let go allowing a Hong Kong Skyscraper to crash into my floor. 04:15 dances before me mockingly. The rest of the night passes in reverie. Never fully asleep and not quite awake, the false sleep of wakefulness.
The blaring crescendo of my alarm clock is no surprise, 0600 beams at me triumphant. It's gonna be a long Monday.

Trust

Some things came to light this weekend, they dealt directly with a situation that has caused me much confusion and more than a little bit of hurt. Managed to reopen some things I thought I was over. Seems that a lot could have been avoided if outside parties had simply either kept their advise to themselves, or said you two need to talk and come to an understanding. Some of the people I trusted gave advise one way, and then told me the opposite or played dumb when dealing with me. This actually hits harder than the actual situation.
When I call someone a friend, that is someone I put my trust into. I know many people but only consider a very few friends, these are the people I love like brothers and sisters. That none of the folks involved played me straight on this, kinda leave me floored. Things done with "the best intentions" often fall short of the mark.

The place

I stand knees slightly inward, head and shoulders slightly back, arms raised in front of me, hands unclenched and fingers at my target. My mind is teaming with unnecessary thoughts, so I build a fire.
All anger goes into it, all fear, all longing, all sadness, all happiness, all emotions burn away. Next comes the issues of the day, all the issues from work, her eyes, it all burns away. Everything I am burns away, leaving nothing but the fire and with out fuel it goes out. This is the place.
Senses expand and the world slows down, the guys across the gym play basketball in slow motion. Finally I move, the heavy bag jerks from the impacts. Every bead of sweat is felt, the heart races to keep up with the demand. I hear the hushed whispers as the basket ball players stop to watch. The cycle continues, formlessness is given form, every breath is measured, every movement precise, nothing is wasted.
Finally it ends, and I leave the place. The world rushes in and fills the void. I feel everything again, but it doesn't seem as important. My body aches, and all I can do is smile. It's been a long time since I came here, and I have missed it.

Saying Hello....

I received the call this morning, I've been waiting on it the last couple days. Waking from a dead sleep, I look at the phone and grin.

7.4 pounds 19 inches long, little round face and already some dark hair.

Welcome to the world Abigail Elizabeth, you have an uncle who loves you.

Saying goodbye....

Said goodbye to a friend last night. She is leaving the country to pursue a better life. Quite a bittersweet evening, laughs and smiles that never quite reach the eyes. Promises to visit that ring hollow were exchanged. After all is said and done farewell is said and the lingering emptiness is left.

Pirate time!!

I think in their hearts everyone, no matter how prim and proper, dreams of being a pirate.

Every normal man must be tempted at times to spit on his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats. -Henry Louis Mencken

Even pirates, before they attack another ship, hoist a black flag. -Bela Kiraly

Life's pretty good, and why wouldn't it be? I'm a pirate, after all. -Johnny Depp

There is more treasure in books than in all the pirate's loot on Treasure Island and at the bottom of the Spanish Main... and best of all, you can enjoy these riches every day of your life. -Walt Disney (not a true pirate quote, but one I like none the less)

The average man will bristle if you say his father was dishonest, but he will brag a little if he discovers that his great-grandfather was a pirate. -Bern Williams

Where there is a sea there are pirates. -Greek proverb

Now and then we had a hope that if we lived and were good, God would permit us to be pirates. -Mark Twain

It is when pirates count their booty that they become mere thieves. -William Bolitho



Quotes from Thinkexist.com

New neice on the way!!!

Got the message from my sister that in the next couple days I'm gonna have a new neice!! So I am a quite anxious at the moment.

Deja Vu

I've had it pretty much all my life. See and do things in a dream, then later down the road have these things happen. It happens randomly, and most of the time I don't remember the dream till I'm in the situation. Saturday this happened again, it was almost like the night was scripted. A very odd feeling. How come this can never happen with Lotto numbers?

I've never.....

Introduced to a fun little drinking game last night, called "I've never". Basically you go around the group and say "I've never (insert some act here)" if some one in the group has done that, they drink.

Figured that would be a good topic for today......

Ive never:

Been to all 7 continents (been to 6, but Antarctica still eludes me)

Parachuted (not that fond of planes, so jumping out of one is not really me)

Been married (been engaged, but never gone all the way)

Been arrested

Seen my grandparents naked (most people reading this right now just had a very bad mental image that is going to haunt them)

Needed a safety word (they are for wusses anyway)

Defused a bomb at the last second, saving the day (my first response to a bomb is to get away quickly)

Just a couple things I've never done.

Fair winds and following seas.....

Memorial day, this is when we honor those Americans who have given all so that their countrymen can be free. I'm not one to spin pretty words, so I'm gonna keep it simple. Brothers and sisters, the debt we owe you is beyond measure. Fair winds and following seas.

Tempus fugit

Another weekend down, August looms before me. Seems that the last few months have flown by. Coming up on a point where many of my friends will be leaving and returning to their home countries. I am also waiting to see if I will be staying here (stupid contract negotiations), if I don't hear something soon back to the US for me. How can a day pass so slow, and a month go by in the blink of an eye?

A drama free night

Had a good relaxing evening last night. A little wine and cheese, a charming friend, and some Guy Ritchie films. All in all a nice drama free night.

Chasing the ghost

Spent a large portion of last night trying to help a friend, so am quite tired at the moment.

My friend is quite literally stressing herself sick over a relationship that may or may not exist. Smart thing to do would be call the other person (face to face would be better, but time zone and location are factors here) and ask them what is going on, get the answer you need and move one way or the other.

Being that this is a matter of the heart, the smart thing is probably not going to come into play. Fear of rejection keeps the call from happening, but then anxiety about what is happening eats away at her. Not the best of situations.

To my point of view she has three options:
1. Make the call, have the talk and move on.
2. Say enough is enough, put a stop to it and move on.
3. Stay where you are and keep beating yourself up with worry.

It weighs on me to see a friend going through this sort of thing. Not too much of a way to help, save listening and offering advise when they ask (only when they ask, very important that). The only way things are going to improve is to move forward, one way or the other. Good or bad you can not keep chasing the ghost.

Not exactly upbeat, but I like it.

"Call Me When You're Sober" -Evanescence

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don't lie to me,
Just get your things.
I've made up your mind.

Interesting conversation snippits from the pub

My friend who shat in a pint glass once ... (any story that starts with these words is gonna be good)

I wish my mom was that easy....

Would you like to see my Clock ring?

Piss off ya scunner!

What does "sod off" mean? (always funny when an insult is lost in translation)

OK, the politics talk stops or I drop my pants! (said by me, and followed through with)

Give it up man, quit waiting for her to walk in. She blew you off again. (said to me)

Oh the humanity!!!!

Torture, a very scary word. Brings to mind images of racks, red hot irons, and large men in black hoods. At Guantanamo Bay it apparently means something completely different.

Now I am not one to suggest that prisoners be treated badly in way, but come on.
No scented deodorant and shampoo, the cleaners leaving marks on the walls, and a ball that "hardly" bounced. Sounds like a cheap motel rather than a prison.

So what would you say to conditions where you slept in a "coffin locker (1,2)" stacked three high and shared your room with around 100 other people? Where you rarely see the light of day for months at a time? Where not only do you have no ball, you have no place to use it? These are the conditions that the men and women of the US Navy live in every day. I spent 5 Med cruises, and 1 West PAC (not to mention the work ups and other miscellaneous exercises) living like this (roughly 5 years). Not once did I whine about deodorant being unscented, so forgive me if scoff at this.

Photos from What's in Scott's head?

Only human....

It is always a shock when someone who you respect proves to be just as human as you. Is there anything as disheartening as watching a pedestal crumble? Can you look at that person in the same light ever again? What do you do if you are the person on the pedestal, and you are suddenly only human?

Changing the world

Had a friend of mine ask me this weekend, how she could change the world. Being one for extrospection (and introspection, I like spection in general) this got me pondering. How does one person change the world?

Passion , lasting change does not come to the apathetic.
Patience, lasting change does not come quickly.
Dedication, lasting change does not come easy.
Sacrifice, lasting change does not come cheaply.
Strength, lasting change does not come without work.

These are things I feel are needed in a person to change the world. How they use these traits are just as important as having them. From what I have seen,

The least effective burn with too much passion, they force their views down the throats of everyone around them. The with us or against us ideals, no compromise. Right here right now, everything or nothing. They force change.

The middling will listen to compromise, and try to lead from the front and coax people to come to their side. They teach change.

The truly effective, see the world as it should be and live their lives accordingly. Others see this and instinctively follow suit. Thus the change comes with out being realized. They are change.

Heroes

Just started watching the show Heroes. If you don't know it's a show about people suddenly discovering that they have super powers, and the drama that comes from them. I realized something watching this....

I could not be trusted with any type of super power.

Tigers tigers everywhere

The Tiger

The Tiger is said to be lucky vivid, lively and engaging. Another attribute of the Tiger is his incredible bravery, evidenced in his willingness to engage in battle or his undying courage. Maybe he’s so brave because he is so lucky. But the Chinese say a Tiger having a Tiger in the house is the very best protection against the evils of fire, burglary.

Years of the Tiger

Tiger Years are third in the cycle and recur every twelfth year. The Chinese New Year does not fall on a specific date, so it is essential to check the calendar to find the exact date on which each Tiger year actually begins.

THE SIGN OF THE TIGER

Tigers do not find worth in power or money. They will be completely honest about how they feel and expect the same of you. On the other hand, they seek approval from peers and family. Generally, because of their charming personalities Tigers are well liked. Often, failing at a given task or being unproductive in his personal or professional life can cause a Tiger to experience a depression. Criticism from loved ones can also generate this type of Tiger reaction. Still, like all felines, Tigers always land on their feet, ready for their next act in life, pursuing it with unyielding energy and hunting it infallibly.

Tigers are also incorrigibly competitive - they simply cannot pass up a challenge, especially when honor is at stake, or they are protecting those they love. Tigers are unpredictable and it would be unwise to underestimate their reactions. They may appear cool, but they have the Big Cat's instincts to pounce at a moment's warning. Natural leaders, they have a strong sense of their own dignity, and if they find

themselves in the ranks, they can be stubborn and obstinate. In positions of power they can be difficult though stimulating bosses. Tigers are intelligent, alert, and farsighted. They have their fingers on the pulse. Good strategists and tacticians, they often have a hidden agenda. As long as they do not risk their luck too often, and keep their restless nature under control, their tactics usually pay off in life.

TIGER FACTS:

People born in the year of the Tiger share certain characteristics. The Tiger sign is an abbreviated way of characterizing that individual’s personality. Following are features associated with the sign of the Tiger.

Third in order, Chinese name - HU, sign of courage

Hour--am-4:59am Month--February

Western counterpart—Aquarius

CHARACTERISTICS

Courage, Vehemence, Self-Reliance, Friendliness, Hopefulness, Resilience, Vanity, Disregard

IN YOUR ELEMENT

The characteristics of the Tiger are tempered by one of the five Chinese elements of Metal, Water, Wood, Fire and Earth overlaying a 5-year cycle of characteristics on the original 12-year cycle.

THE METAL TIGER 195O AND 2010

The Metal element gives the Tiger its sharpness in action and speed of thought. Tigers born in the Metal year like to stand out in a crowd. With an inspiring assertiveness and competitive demeanor, they determine their goals and then do anything necessary to achieve them. This good-looking character sometimes suffers from mood swings and temper tantrums. The Tiger can be known to jump to conclusions or to act too quickly without weighing the options or understanding the consequences. This is a flaw Tigers must learn to curb.

THE WATER TIGER 1902 AND 1962

The Water element gives the Tiger a soothing characteristic making this breed a bit more tranquil. Their ability to consider feelings and ideas from other people makes them quite sensible and understanding. They are also born with a great intuitive power, which gives them accurate and excellent judgement. The Tiger is a bit indecisive, a habit of nature born of his routine of watching and waiting before leaping. Sometimes too, Tigers get caught sleeping or daydreaming, prohibiting them from going for the goals they initially set out to accomplish.

THE WOOD TIGER 1914 AND 1974

The Wood Tiger is more adaptable to working with others and therefore does not demonstrate the typical "take charge" attitude of other Tigers. The Wood element adds stability, giving him warmth of character that draws people in and makes the Tiger a popular person. They are not selfish creatures and will give their time, attention or possessions to anyone in need. These Tigers bring a solid practicality to any problem. They can control their urges to completely take over, letting others do the work. They must be aware of their slightly volatile tempers and short attention spans, and not let those characteristics get the best of them or cause them or their loved ones undue pain.

THE FIRE TIGER 1926 AND 1986

Eccentric and dramatic, Fire Tigers are aglow with passion and verve. They are outgoing, expressive and look on the bright side of things. They have the Tiger’s natural ability to lead others and are able to excite others simply with their own gift of enthusiasm. They can be funny and have great senses of humor. Tigers are powerful speakers and have the ability to command and persuade crowds through speech. Their own seemingly endless supply of energy can make them appear a bit dramatic, and it may make them more sensitive to cautious or down-to-earth approaches in others.

THE EARTH TIGER 1938 AND 1998

Earth Tigers are realists and tend not to get caught up by their own enthusiasm and excitement. They have a stout and sincere sense of responsibility that other Tigers haven’t quite cultivated and are not so easily distracted. These Tigers take life a little easier and have the ability to focus for longer periods of time, which in turn brings them success through continued effort. Earth Tigers must be careful not to take life too seriously and must remember not to lose their senses of humor or to ignore the needs and feelings of others.

HEALTH AND HOME

HEALTH

Tigers tackle everything in their lives in brief bursts of energy, collapsing afterwards in a heap of exhaustion. Normally they are soon back to full strength, but their approach can cause their long-term health to suffer. They should take it a little easier and learn to pace themselves to keep active longer and to prevent early burnout. They are blessed with flexibility and recover quickly from illness or pain. They owe it to themselves to relax a little. Along with the fitness of their long-term health, Tigers must be aware of how they react to and are affected by the consequences of their tempers. A Tiger’s meanest enemy is the damage he can inflict upon himself in the midst of a temper tantrum.

AT HOME WITH THE TIGER

Tigers take pride in being different than others and generally illustrate their originality best in their homes. Tigers can utilize their atmosphere with color and light. A Tiger’s home will be filled with exotic treasures from trips past and will include items such as Tibetan prayer mats or African carvings, confirming their desire to travel to distant places.

CAREER AND FINANCE

THE TIGER ON THE JOB

A quickness and an alert intelligence make Tigers fast learners. Tigers need a challenge. Add this to them being easily bored and it explains why Tigers tend to change careers more often than other Chinese Animals. Some Tigers don’t change their occupations frequently enough and thus tend to juggle jobs all at the same time. Most Tigers are natural born leaders who perform best knowing they are working towards positions of power and influence.

MONEY AND THE TIGER

Tigers depend on luck. They like to spend money, and also to share it. They can be quite impulsive spenders because they know they can always make more. Somehow, as luck would have it, they discover the end of the rainbow just before complete bankruptcy. They are willing to lose a fortune in their lifetime, if it means they will wind up with two.

TIGER CAREERS

Those born in the Year of the Tiger share the same kinds of goals and objectives in life. The occupations best suited for the Tiger are listed below:

TIGERS MAKE EXCELLENT:

Actors

Comedians

Chauffeurs

Musicians

Race Car Drivers

Pilots

Artists

Writers

Flight Attendants

Travel Agents

Advertising Agents

Office Managers

CONGENIAL BUSINESS PARTNERS

Whether Tigers are compatible with their business partners depends on whether their signs are harmonious or antagonistic to those of their business partners. Considering the congruity of their own characters and the characters of their business partners can also be very useful.

Tigers ruled by Benefit From Are Antagonistic to

Metal Earth Dogs Fire Oxen

Water Metal Pigs Earth Snakes

Wood Water Tigers Metal Roosters

Fire Wood Horses Water Rats

Earth Fire Dragons Wood Monkeys

Leisurely activities and pleasures

LIKES AND DISLIKES

Since Tigers are born under the same Animal Sign, they often share likes and dislikes. Following are similar likes and dislikes of the Tiger personality.

Tigers like:

Color Preference: Mid-green

Gems and Stones: Ruby, Diamond, Cat’s Eye

Suitable Gifts: Exotic cookbooks, travel guides, sports gear, mystery or crime novel, extreme sport lessons

Hobbies and Pastimes: Amateur theater, extreme sports, loud parties, intriguing vacations

Tigers Dislike: Not getting enough recognition for their efforts. Being inferior to others at work, impolite people

THE TIGER ON VACATION

Tigers like to live on the edge, to travel long distances conquering thrills and fears along the way. Never the homebody, Tigers prefer activity and excitement to relaxing days by the ocean reading a good book. They leave on a whim and return when they are ready to plan their next vacation. Action-filled getaways are sure to get a Tiger away for a long time!

FRIENDS AND ENEMIES

Tigers, born under the third Animal sign of the Chinese Zodiac, have the ability to lift the spirits of even the most depressed or lonesome individual they meet. Because of that attitude, Tigers have no problem making new friends. Actually, a Tiger person without a friend is quite miserable and sad. Like the Dragon, the Monkey, and the Rat, Tigers are most comfortable surrounded by friends and family.

As friends, Tigers are exceptionally warm and incredibly generous with their time, attention and money. Friends are always welcome in a Tiger’s home and will most often be greeted with a cup of coffee, an ear, a tissue, an open mind and an open wallet. Few friends could be as caring and affectionate, as quirky and surprising, or as genuinely interested as the Tiger.

Compatible Friends

Best Friends: Horses and Dogs

Mortal Enemy: Monkeys

TIGER PARENTS AND BABIES

Tiger parents are quite similar to the characters of their wildlife counterparts. They will walk through fire to protect their children or to defend them to others. As warm and affectionate as they are, they can become fierce and defensive when their kids are at stake. They lavish their offspring with treats and spoil them with generosity. Tiger parents can be fun as kittens, playing family games and getting great enjoyment from it. On the whole, they enjoy their children's company, having a good laugh and sharing a funny joke. Still, adult Tigers will become enraged if one of their children has gone too far, or is disrespectful. As open-minded and liberal as they are, they will not, under any circumstances, tolerate bad manners, or a lack of respect for other adults.

They take their role as parents very seriously, and they believe in the value of a good education. When their kids are small, Tigers like to tell them tales and read them stories. They like to talk about their childhood experiences, and use their stories to instill moral lessons or any ethical feelings. Tigers are decidedly convinced to make themselves the very best role models for their children that they can be.

TIGER INFANT AND CHILD

Tiger babies and children are cheerful children with a zest and passion for life that ignites their curious nature. Boys will and girls alike will enjoy the competitiveness and athleticism sports require. From an early age, Tiger children can’t pass on a dare or a challenge. Intelligent and friendly, Tiger children carry a curiosity about life and their environment. In class, they are apt to enjoy and do better at subjects that give them the ability and creative freedom to express themselves.

TIGER PARENT/CHILD KINSHIPS

Some parents immediately click with their children and others find they will never have a close relationship, no matter how hard they try to make it happen. Following are the compatibility ratings between Tiger parents and their children.

Tigers with Under the same roof Compatibility Rating

Rat put time into it for maximum effect **

Ox difficult *

Tiger look at life the same way ***

Rabbit smooth sailing ***

Dragon principled parenting ****

Snake going different directions *

Horse similar outlook ****

Sheep loving relationship **

Monkey pretty divided *

Rooster separate ideas *

Dog strong bonds and deep friendship ****

Pig to get the good you’ll survive the bad ***

*uphill struggle **some complications ***easy bonding ****on the same wavelength

LOVERS AND SPOUSES

THE TIGER LOVER

Tigers are incredibly sexy people, beautiful to most people and sensually romantic. They are spontaneous lovers who never lose their creative spark or flare for an evening of passion. They offer their partner a hint of danger and exhibit a curiosity for the unknown.

MARRIAGE

Once a Tiger has committed himself to you, he can tend to want to dominate or lead you. This is a natural nurturing mechanism and must be kept under close watch to avoid complete control. For the negative effects a Tiger can have on

his partner, there are a zillion positive things he will bring to the relationship. Trust, passion, politeness and spontaneity are only a few characteristics of the Tiger mate.

THE TIGER LOVE PARTNER

Tigers love excitement and need someone who can keep up with all they want to do and see. His partner must also be able to stand the mood swings, the ups and downs, the good with the bad. Chinese horoscopes are very specific about which partnerships have the potential to be successful in love and in business. Yet, though destiny can point us ion the right direction, we must still make all efforts to maintain loving relationships. Following is a brief description of how a Tiger will affect a relationship with other Animal signs.

PARTNERS IN LOVE

Tiger*Rat

Lots of friendship, but many temper tantrums will blur the good times.

Tiger*Ox

This is one of the worst possible pairings…that’s probably why you are so drawn to each other.

Tiger*Tiger

You are both so dominant and creative you are bound to ignite each other’s curiosity.

Tiger*Rabbit

This is another good match.

Tiger*Dragon

A brave combination plenty of fire to keep you interested.

Tiger*Snake

You are on completely different paths that aren’t worth crossing.

Tiger*Horse

You are destined for an exciting life together.

Tiger*Sheep

Not enough openness to try to keep it together.

Tiger*Monkey

You’ll aggravate each other to death!

Tiger*Rooster

Little communication causes big issues.

Tiger*Dog

You are a winning combination…admiration and respect fuel this partnership.

Tiger*Pig

Humor and friendship make this partnership a success!

Love Partners at a Glance

Tigers with Tips on Togetherness Compatibility

Rat value each other’s opinions **

Ox striking tantrums *

Tiger to much mind changing **

Rabbit differences are similar ***

Dragon a great partnership ***

Snake don’t go for it *

Horse good match ****

Sheep marriage won’t work **

Monkey pretty frustrating *

Rooster make a decision or leave **

Dog stable and affectionate ****

Pig humor keeps you together ****

COMPATIBILITY RATINGS:

*dispute **keep working at it ***intense sexual attraction ****angelic

EAST MEETS WEST

ARIES TIGER

Volatile and active, these people are whirlwinds who must enjoy open spaces and a lot of activity. Feeling pinned down to one decision or one destination is an Aries Tiger’s worst nightmare. These people are generous and brave as well as deeply passionate people.

LIBRAN TIGER

These Tigers play fair and value justice in their everyday lives. They are known to flail in their own personal decision-making efforts.

TAUREAN TIGER

More down-to-earth than other Tigers, these people are practical and will finish tasks they start. They work well under pressure and can maintain their workloads through amazing efforts. They are passionate in their partnerships and provide stability to their loved ones.

SCORPIO TIGER

This is the most intense Tiger of them all. Scorpio Tigers are deeply emotional and sensitive people, extremely focused on the task at hand. They are strong-willed and motivated and don’t like contradiction.

GEMINI TIGER

These people like to move about freely. They yearn to see new places and to meet new people in their travels. They are quirky, funny, intelligent and lively and are more comfortable being the life of the party than being a guest there.

SAGITTARIAN TIGER

These Tigers have a great appetite for life and thrust themselves into everyday of their lives. They are mostly extroverts who enjoy being out and about in strange places. They also like to be spontaneous and often jump to conclusions before weighing the consequences.

CANCERIAN TIGER

The Cancerian Tiger is a romantic individual who is sensitive and tenderhearted. This character needs a loving, honest relationship to thrive.

CAPRICORN TIGER

These people work long, hard hours to achieve the level of success they believe they are destined for. Their career will always be the most important thing in their lives, with love and relationships following a close second and third.

LEONINE TIGER

This Tiger expects the respect he believes he deserves. He works hard for his status and position and commands a certain presence when he enters a room.

AQUARIAN TIGER

These Tigers ignore the rules and regulations of society and choose instead to focus on matters of the heart. They tend to forget about the emotions involved in these matters, which causes them to seem harder and less sensitive.

VIRGO TIGER

These Tigers can be pretty picky when it comes to choosing a partner. They have an eye for detail that can cause them to be a little neurotic at times.

PISCEAN TIGER

Quite sensitive and kind, these Tigers are a bit more reserved than most. They are patient and loving and often supress the fiery passions that can accompany the Tiger personality. Once they decide they want a partner, they will stop at nothing to get him or her.

Been reading up on my Chinese zodiac sign. Long dull days will do that to you. this one is from http://www.usbridalguide.com/special/chinesehoroscopes

Observations from the weekend

Keeping your word can often lead to missing out on loads of fun.

Heavy drinking can lead to people dropping their pants in bars.

Barcardi 151 can make a standard rum and coke, dangerous and quite painful.

The Nintendo Wii (despite the stupid name), has to be one of the coolest video game consoles ever.

There is no non-embarrassing way to ask a friend to come over and play with your Wii.

The late night partying is just not as fun with out certain people around.

I must be growing up, my wardrobe now included cuff-links (pretty spiffy ones to boot).

The heart wants what the heart wants, no matter how much people tell you it's a bad idea (non-solicited advise no less).

Reflecting on Tuesday, not sure how I feel about the possibility of deploying to Iraq.

Women confuse the hell out of men, and men frustrate women (Yeah, I know that this is well documented).

Got told by a friend that my Chinese horoscope was pretty dead on (not too sure about the playboy part myself, but I am pretty self-centered).

Saw Spiderman 3 (in good company), thought it was ok. A bit too much crying and touchy feelly for what I look for in a comic book movie (Wolverine never cried). Also still not too sure about the emo-Peter Parker. I do, however, want one of those flying snowboards.

I got nothing,

Wanted to do a post today, but I got nothing. Maybe tomorrow.

Last Letter Home -Dropkick Murphys

Hello there my dearest love
Today I write to you about our sons
The boys start school today
They're the spitting image of you in every way

Hey son it's Dad
I hope this letter finds you well out of harm's way
We saw the news today it frightened your Mom
Now all she does is pray

If I lead will you follow?
Will you follow if I lead?

Hey Melissa it's me don't be afraid
I'm in good hands I'm gonna be home soon
It's time to watch the children grow up
I wanna be more than a voice on the phone

Thanks Ma I got your package today
I love "The Fields Of Athenry"
I swear I want 'em to play that song on the pipes
At my funeral when I die


I stand alone in the distance
And the foreground slowly moves


"We regret to inform you that on January 28th Sgt. Andrew
Farrar died while serving his country in the Al-Anbar province
of Iraq words cannot convey our sorrow"


When there's nothing on the horizon
You've got nothing left to prove

If I lead will you follow?

Made it back

Well the trip to Hong Kong was a blast, a great time was had with my host and adjunct tour guide. Hong Kong is probably my favorite city on earth, there is just something about it. The lights and sounds, it feels like it is a living being. At night it is just amazing, looking across Kowloon harbor is a breathtaking sight. I still have to download my pictures and post them.

Who do I look like?

Floating in the Random zone

Here I sit, waiting to go to Hong Kong on Friday (YAY!!). Random thoughts once again start to cycle through my mind.

Who ever came up with Cinnamon Altoids is a genius.

Is there any sport that can not be made more watchable by adding the words "Female" and "Topless" to it? (may even make NASCAR watchable, but they would have to drive convertibles)

Is there anything the Main Steam Media will not try to make a crisis out of?

Could Kinder Eggs be the coolest candy ever?

Heard the new Linkin Park single, was not impressed. Seems to have lost their edge and fallen into the realm of popular rock.

Is there any movie that Uwe Boll can not make horrible?

Contentment.

Fame or integrity: which is more important?
Money or happiness: which is more valuable?
Success or failure: which is more destructive?

If you look to others for fulfillment,
you will never truly be fulfilled.
If your happiness depends on money,
you will never be happy with yourself.

Be content with what you have;
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you.

-From the Tao Te Ching

Blame...

The shootings at Virginia Tech, was a tragedy. A lot of students dead due to one kid's dementia. Turn on the television and you get bombarded by reporters and experts, all showing mock concern as they try to turn this horrific act into a political weapon. Once again I am sickened by how the media tries to cash in on sorrow and death.

Who is to blame? This seems to be the mantra nowadays. Is it the fault of the firearms, the state, the school, the parents, the rich kids, video games, rock and roll, the government, who? Why were actions not taken? In all the whys and who's one thing keeps bugging me, why is the shooter not the villain? In every news report and article the shooter, to me, seems to be made just as much of a victim as the people he killed. Why is he not held responsible for his actions? Many other people have hard lives, and manage not to go on a killing sprees.

Bwahahaahhhaaa

So here I am, munching on some fresh pineapple (after the discussion I had this weekend, I can't look at a pineapple with out having the urge to giggle), and surfing the net when I find this at VGCats.
I about sprayed pineapple all over my monitor.

Busy week

This week has been quite busy. Caught between work, and very busy social calender, this week has flown by. So far this week I have:

Helped my customers fix yet another one of the problems they cause themselves by not listening to people in the know (ie...ME).

Had dinner and coffee with a Scottish friend, and discussed all the high schoolish drama in our group.

Scheduled a trip to Hong Kong (YAY!!!)

Had dinner and drinks with the muse of my soul (I know you're going to eventually read this so have to poke fun at you)

Obtained all the stuff needed for Saturday's Toga Party , and only had one auto accident getting the stuff.

Paid for my Hong Kong trip (and received requests for various things from the wonderful city)

Had dinner with a Korean friend, who always manages to make me laugh.

Obtained information for some company bigwigs that decided to drop in unexpectedly.

Rolled up a Dungeons and Dragons character, a Kender thief (yep, still a geek at heart)

and still managed to make it to the gym every night.

And now it's the weekend, curious on what it will hold.

Hong Kong bound

Well made a snap decision yesterday, going to Hong Kong for a weekend. Been way too long since I've been there, and as an added bonus I get to finally meet a friend face to face.

Tired....

Last couple nights I have been plagued by insomnia. I was going to write about all the things that happened this weekend, revelations that were made, dances that were danced, and a surprise guest star all thrown in to the mix. Unfortunately just don't have it in me at the moment. The torpid state of sleeplessness is really kicking in. Oh well maybe tomorrow.

Vista Banished...

The ordeal is over, last night I reinstalled XP pro on my computer. It's like a great, red hot, spiky weight has been lifted (off very sensitive body parts). I can not begin to put into words, how I feel about Vista. The fact I spent money on this, for lack of a better word, program causes me much self loathing and shame. If you have not jumped from XP to Vista consider yourself blessed.

Some good vids

And a outstanding one sent to me by "M"

offensive material

Time for a bit of ranting. Let's look at some political correctness and the way we kowtow avoid offending people.

Police were called in because a 10 year old boy called a classmate "gay" in an email. I remember growing up, we called each other all sorts of names. Never needed the police. Over react much?

Schools quit teaching about the Holocaust . I really am stunned by this, 6 MILLION people murdered. 6 MILLION men, women, and children butchered by hatred. Certain people might find that fact offensive? It might cause strife because their holy men say it did not happen? Look in the eyes of the survivors, talk to the soldiers who found those camps, stare at the pictures, read the documents, and then tell me it did not happen.

School district supports "Ebonics" . So much for teaching proper English skills, and getting students prepared for the real world.

12 students suspended for praying in school.
"Congress make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances."
Guess that doesn't include Christian students trying to have a prayer meeting. Still trying to figure out how a meeting at 7 am in the cafeteria would "disrupt education".

Maybe they should have claimed they were role-playing, instead of having a prayer meeting. It seems to have worked in San Francisco.

Just give it a rest. Stop with the double standards, and quit trying to subject everyone to your half-assed "Brady Bunch" view of the way the world is supposed to be. I don't give a damn about color, religious beliefs, sexual orientation or anything else. I try to live my life, pay my bills, and make it to the end of each day. I don't try to make you accept my views, quit trying to force me to submit to yours.